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About Me Member Pencil Artist K.M.99/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 11 Months
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overwhelmed......

Wed Nov 18, 2009, 10:53 PM
  • Mood: Sadness
i am ready to just pass out from everything that is happening in my life right now.....im exhasted!! and i feel hopeless....numb.....alone..even though i have people around me....i still feel alone...even my boyfriend....i hear him out in the livingroom with our (his?) friends-playing WII, and laughing and having a good time. i havn't heard him like that in a long while. we dont make each other laugh anymore....he says im always pushing him away....well...i guess right now i am, what with all the shit i have to deal with right now. i lock myself up in our bedroom....keeping to myself.....agonizing over the thoughts of what has been going on in my life right now.....i am sooo fucking NUMB!!!! and im also going thru all 5 stages of grief too--at the same fuckin time!!! im depressed-im pissed off-im so sad-and im trying to accept it all-like one giant fuckin horse pill im trying to swallow!!!! and im choking miserably on it!!!i dont know what to do with myself....nothing interests me anymore...im trying to be creative...but...i cant put it down on paper...im sick to my stomach! and i also feel guilty about my boyfriend because today is his birthday-and i just cant be there emotionally for him..i even told him that i might move out and in with a friend-my tattoo girl-i feel like such a horrible person---i cant make him happy anymore and i just wish he would admit it! i dont know why he is holding on!?? he says cause he loves me....there is no such thing as love..not for me anyway.....and i miss my sister!!!! if only i could talk to her one more time....

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Ummmm--I love to draw!! Duh!! I love music,Crime TV(real crimes!),taking pictures,playing with my dog-Raven,collecting skulls,and vampire stuff(Goth!)some Anime:Hellsing!!, saving snakes from killer people!! Really-I have a non-profit(Take Contributions!!)job Called Rufffs Reptile Rescue & Relocation-where I transport snakes, basically Rattlers, to safe, no people places! I've been bit once!! No worries! It was a dry bite. If I can, I'll see if it's ok to post personal pics, so you have an idea of who I am!!!I also love Tattoos and Piercings!! I now have 10 TaTs, and 21 ear piercings! CHOW!!

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  • Personal Quote: "You D*ck!"
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:iconnevanever:
thank yoou for the favoritee :la:

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:iconhotdog-halflife:
YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY AWESOME!!! :love:

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-| You can turn your back, but it won't go away,
-| You don't look scared, but you should be afraid,
-| You can shut your mouth, but you still have a say,
-| And you just don't care for tomorrow, today.

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:iconloyse:
I'm just here to say: HI!:D

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:iconrufffs:
HI LOYSE!!!
HOW ARE YOU??? IM OK.....JUST EXISTING....WE ARE STILL DEPRESSED CAUSE WE HAVE TO MOVE....AND WE HAV'NT EVEN FOUND A PLACE YET!!! I DONT KNOW WHETHER TO SCREAM OR CRY OR BOTH!!!! I DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE DRAWING LATELY----BUT I TRIED WHAT WITH THE 'STOP' EYE, AND THE HORSE ONE. I JUST WANT TO HIDE UNDER MY COVERS-BURY MY HEAD IN MY PILLOWS, AND WAIT FOR IT ALL TO BE OVER!!!! OH WELL.....
HEY LOYSE--BTW--DO YOU HAPPEN TO HAVE 'SKYPE'? ITS FREE PC TO PC TALKING, WITH A MICROPHONE AND HEADPHONES!! YOU CAN EVEN ADD A WEBCAM TO SEE ONE ANOTHER!! HAVE YOU HEARD OF IT?? ITS ALL FREE!!! LET ME KNOW-AND THEN WE CAN TALK ONLINE THRU OUR COMPUTERS!!!!
OK....LOVE TO YOU!!!
WRITE SOON!! AND YOU CAN REACH ME AT MY EMAIL ADDRESS TOO!
RUFFFIES@HOTMAIL.COM
LOOKING FORWARD TO HEARING FROM YOU!
LOVE KARI
:iconinoaaai:
Thank you so much for the watch :D!!

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